This is just a collect of random thoughts curently swirling around in my head. Might elaborate on a few and write some stories, who knows?!

 

* I just walked, I didn't think, I didn't ask, I didn't know. The crunching of the crimson and bronzed leaves beneath my feet, along with my pounding heart beat was all I could hear, all I could feel. Then it hit me... why was I running away? I turned, and marched myself back toward him. Now was the time for me to face this...

 

* As I stepped from the bus a wall of heat hit me, it was a dry heat, intense, scorching.  'Welcome to the rest of your life' I thought to myself. What was I doing? Was it too late to change my mind, to chicken out and go back to the way things use to be? 'Yes, it is too late' I scolded myself. I couldn't go back to that, I wouldn't last, I just didn't have the drive, the passion, the hope anymore. It was time to move on, time to find me.

 

* Our eyes meet, I stared hoping for a bit of an insight or an indication of his thoughts. Noticing he turned away, he felt the connect just as much as I did, but why? It was odd, this invisible bond we seemed to have, neither sexual, nor physical. We just understood each other, no words needed.

 

Well that will do for now. As its like 3.24am I should be going to bed! Goodnight all and please feel free to post a comment, contructive critism, or just say hello!! Cheers!

I love it. No thinking, no pausing, just typing or even better free hand writing. The endless emotion that seems to flow from your body, through your hands and onto screen or paper. The finished product that satisfys you in the most perculiar way. You feel proud, relaxed, fullfilled! The best release for me is writing, I do it everyday. Helps me think, helps me relax, helps me vent! I rarely share my writings with anyone, no one has really shown an interest i guess. Perhaps I will share some on here, expose others to my thought and veiws! I usually write in poem or short story form, lol or just constant writing as the emotions and thought pour from me! I highly recommend others give it a try, even if you think your not good at it. Don't think, just write, you might surprise yourself!!

What a week i have had, it started great and day by day it's getting worst:( To add to it Jakobi has been sick and grumpy all week.  Monday was great, Tuesday is payday, a direct debit was taken out by mistake on the wrong date which left me with hardly any money for bills and shopping, Wednesday, I woke up feeling a bit under the weather, then when i went to get something out of the freezer for dinner I found the freezer had been unplugged and everything in there was defrosted. Thursday i just stayed home and cleaned my house, didn't fancy anything else going wrong. Friday well, Friday takes the cake, I got a bill for over $15,ooo. An overpayment, which wasn't my fault but never the less I have to pay it back. I am already on a very strict budget that doesn't really allow extras and now they want to take 14% of my payments each fornight. I think I will stay home, not answer the phone or open the door this weekend and hopefully next week will improve. I can only hope. To anyone who reads this, I sincerly hope you are having a better week!

So I'm fat! lol just like the 1 in 3 others around town! I choose not to be fat any longer, I am doing something about it. I joined a group about 6 weeks ago, a support group for weight loss, and I feel I'm doing well! I have lost 7.3kg (just over 16lb). There was an awards night tonight, I won the queen of the month award, for the most weight loss in the group for the month. I am pretty proud of it! I am going to work harder this week I am really motivated by it. Heres to a new improved me! I'll keep you updated every few week!