Have you ever had that feeling where you are surround by heaps of people but you feel all alone? It horrible. You feel smothered and lonely at the same time. You can't breathe, you can't concentrate, you can't think... its overwhelming. Feelings of helplessness, confusion, they overwhelm me. It all feels so much at once, the easy option would be to run and hide away but when did that ever work? Better to face the problems head on, sort them and deal woth them the best I can now, instead of waiting till they totally take over! I feel like I can't rely on anyone, not trully... I am there for others when they need me but when I need help or support it seems everyone ius too busy or has too many problems of their own. I don't ask for or expect much, just a little help or support when things start weighing me down. I guess it proves that you really can't rely on anyone but yourself.

           At least with yourself you can't be let down or disappointed and if you are you only have yourself to blame. You can't lie or make up things to yourself, you can't play mind games with yourself... I can see the safest option! Its a shame it has come to the place where I feel I can't believe in or rely on others, it saddens me. I hope others have people close they know are always there.

 

I wouls like to say Congrats and well done to my baby sister Korinna. She gave birth to the most adorable little girl yesterday morning at 12.52am. She has named her "Destiny Renee Rose", she weighted 7lb8oz , is 49cm long and was born in her bag!! Yep, I know pretty amazing! When she decided she was coming she didn't wase anytime! Mum and baby are doing extremely well. I will update my album with pics of her later today!! 

Hiya ppl!! Miss me? Ok so you probably haven't but all the same here I am!!

Lets see what's been happening since my last post... Ok well christmas was great, Jakobi had a wonderful day. Santa was good this christmas! Mum went out of her way and did the whole big dinner, you now the roast veggies, then all the meats; beef, turkey, chicken, lamb, ham ect... and ofr course trifle and home made plum pudding. We ate left overs for days!! Then new years was awesome, went to the local horse races, got pretty drunk, got groaped a few times but nothing to speak of:( the fireworks were amazing!! I just love fireworks! Then the 4th of jan was my birthday... yay! lol not it sucked! I'm 22 now! Then it has been so so hot the past few week very high 30's and low 40's thats just not cool. I have no air con.:( I hope to be getting my computer by the end of next week, then I will be back for my regular blogs and chatting!  Hope to see you all then! Cheers!

 

I was sent this in an email and I thought it was too good not to share!!  Enjoy and feel free to pass it on! We should all do this everyday!     This is what a computer should do first thing in the morning! Click on the link (the typing below)  and then type in your first name.. http://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/humour/flattery.html

I absolutely love this site!! hehe must be cause its all about sex...lmao! Ok girls, here a guide just for you... to help you find that elusive G-spot!! Once you have found it and are comfortable with it don't forget to teach your partner all about it!!!!

 

Http://www.sexuality.about.com

 

1.   Avoid performance pressure. People can become fixated on achieving a sexual goal (multiple orgasms, simultaneous orgasm, g-spot orgasms) One thing I can promise is that this is the best way to NOT enjoy any sort of sexual encounter. Remember that sexual exploration is mostly about the journey, not the destination (although the destination is better than most, I’ll agree). Try not to make this another notch in your “sexually self-actualized” belt.

2.   Turn Yourself On. Any homework that starts with this is bound to be somewhat fruitful. The spongy area around the g-spot gets engorged with blood when you’re sexually aroused, so it is much easier to find and feel when you’re turned on.

3.   Get Comfortable and Find the Spot. Lie on your back, squat, or lie on your stomach. Place your palm face down on your vulva and slowly insert a finger inside your vagina (use lube if you’re feeling a little dry), crooking it forward in a “come hither” motion. When you’re up to about the second knuckle you should feel a slightly bumpy or ridged area on the upper wall of your vagina.

4.   Take Note of How it Feels. The texture of the g-spot area will likely be noticeably different from the typically smooth walls of the vagina. When you’re aroused it can expand, so feel it at different times during your arousal to get familiar with its contours and sensitivity. The g-spot responds to pressure, so press down and pull forward using that "come hither" motion with your fingers.

5.   Explore With Toys. For some it can be awkward to stimulate the g-spot by hand. A vibrator or dildo can be a great helper in this. Apply a little lube to your toy, and insert it with the tip (if it’s curved) pointing up toward the top wall of your vagina. Work it in slowly, far enough (a couple of inches) so the tip is pressing against your g-spot.

6.   Experiment with pressure and motion. Some women will find pressure against the g-spot pleasurable, some women like the feeling vibration when a toy is pressing against the g-spot. Experiment and see if either feels good for you. For most women, the g-spot responds to firm pressure. In the beginning, use your toy as if you were trying to scratch an itch—don’t pull the toy all the way out, but use short strokes, applying firm pressure, against the g-spot.

7.   Vary the movements. A circular or back-and-forth motion may be necessary to get you started, but you might soon graduate to a more vigorous thrusting. If you’ve got a vibrator, try playing with the vibrations both on and off to see which you like better.

8.   Add clitoral stimulation. You’ll know you’re hitting the spot as you feel tingly sensations, the urge to pee, and an overall elevation in your arousal. When you feel the urge to come, stimulate your clitoris using your favorite method. Keep stroking your g-spot.

9.   Let go. With continued stimulation, you’ll eventually feel a sensation much like having to pee. This can be quite disconcerting at first, and has probably led plenty of women to abandon the process, but if you stick with it you’ll be in for a pleasant surprise. You may or may not ejaculate, but ejaculation is perfectly normal (and it's not urine).

10.   If you don’t at first orgasm, try try again. It can take several practice sessions before you notice any build up. Try varying your position, using a different toy, experimenting with breathing and kegel exercises (to strengthen your PC muscle), or having a partner help you. Because the g-spot is most responsive when aroused, you may also want to try stimulating it after you’ve had an orgasm.

11.   Remember the ear lobe. Experimenting with the g-spot can be fun, and you never know what you’ll learn in the process. But try not to get hung up on this being a mind-blowing experience. If you’re playing around and it’s not doing anything for you, try something else, and know that there is nothing wrong with you, and what turns us all on is incredibly individual and unique.

Ok fellas grab a pen and paper or cut and paste this, if you think you already know it all... well you don't! lol practise makes perfect so keep it coming! lmfao!!

 

Http://www.sexuality.about.com 

 

1.   Clean yourself up! Make sure your hands are clean, and your nails are trimmed as you'll probably want to use your hands as well as your mouth on her. Shave your stubble—nothing kills the mood quite like sandpaper on her sensitive parts.

2.   Get wet. Many men have preconceived notions about the taste and/or smell of their partner’s genitals. If you're anxious about this, suggest a romantic bath or shower together and then go down on her. Getting naked and wet with each other is never a bad idea, and as you get more comfortable you will probably find that your partners taste and smell trigger more arousal than anything else. Some people use flavored lubricants, and many dental dams (great for safer sex) are flavored also.

3.   Start slowly. Most women won’t want to go from zero to oral sex in 30 seconds. Take your time and ease into it. Do other things you know she loves. Use your hands and mouth all over her body—which will nicely foreshadow what is to come. When she’s good and excited—her hips are thrusting and the moans pretty regular, head south.

4.   Get comfortable. This will be different for everyone, but both of you will enjoy this more if you’re both comfortable. Use pillows and be creative with positioning so that you are both relaxed and feel like you can move around. Some people will find it hard on their neck to lie between their partners legs with their head poised over her vulva. For others this will work just great. Remember that it’s okay to change positions and move around.

5.   Get the lay of the land. If you don’t have the body parts, you may want to brush up on your female genital anatomy . Most of the attention with cunnilingus is on the clitoris, but don’t forget the rest of her body. But every woman is different, and there may be other parts of her that will take oral sex from the everyday to the out of this world. Use your fingers to spread her lips and take a good look at her clitoris, her labia, her mons, her vagina, her perineum and her anus.

6.   When in doubt, go slow. A lot of women have very sensitive clits, so don’t attack her vulva as if it were a juicy ripe peach. Flatten your tongue and use wide slow strokes to explore her inner and outer lips, her vagina, and her clitoris. Imagine licking an ice cream cone. Start at the perineum and lick up and around her clit and back down the other side.

7.   Check the hood. Most women prefer to have their clitorises licked through the "clitoral hood." This is a fold of skin that covers the actual glans of the clitoris, which is extremely sensitive.

8.   Experiment with different strokes. In general, women tend to like firm pressure and repetitive motion. Quick tongue flicks against the clitoris can be irritating. If you’re not sure, ask her to give you feedback while you try different kinds of strokes—circular, side-to-side, up-and-down. Don’t take it personally if she flinches—discovering what pleases is often a process of trial and error—just try something else.

9.   Let her give you a hand. If you've ever seen her masturbate, you have some idea how she likes her clit to be touched. Ask her to show you now, or you can offer her your hand and ask her to demonstrate the kind of stroking she prefers by placing hers on top of yours.

10.   Use your mouth. Take her clit in your mouth and gently suck on it. Use your mouth to suck on or nibble her labia.

11.   Add penetration. When she’s good and excited, add some lubricant to your fingers or toy and gently insert it into her vagina. Move them in and out using short but firm strokes. Put your mouth back on her clitoris and lick her while you penetrate her. This won’t do it for all women, but many love the experience of clitoral stimulation and penetration.

12.   Keep a steady pace, try not to stop. Women like steady stimulation, so don’t stop unless you need to come up for air. You’ll see the signs when she’s getting ready to go over the top—her moans, her thighs pressing against your head, her body arching, her hands tightening on your head! When the orgasm washes over you, she’ll let you know when to stop.

Tips:

1. Don't forget the rest of her body. In terms of what's nearby, you can incorporate the perineum and vaginal opening into your oral sex. Let your tongue travel down and pop in and out of the vagina occasionally.
2. If you are using a sex toy for penetration, she might prefer to work the dildo or vibrator inside her while you're licking. This allows you to concentrate, and her to get the rhythm she likes best.
3. If your mouth or tongue tires, give it a rest, but replace the stimulation with your hand or a vibrator (unless she wants a rest too).
4.  It can take women longer to come than men, and many women are anxious about this. Whatever you do, don't make her feel bad about how long it's taking, and hang in there for the long haul. If you need to stop or change things up, that’s okay, but don’t make it about her “taking too long”.

Its an interesting read. I thought I would post this particular set of instructions as lately I have heard a few friends comment that most chicks have no idea... c'mon girls!! Its not hard, lol i will post a set of instructions for him too, don't worry!!

http://www.sexuality.about.com

Here's How:

1.   Get nice and clean. Social stigma seems to focus on the taste and smell of women’s genitals. In fact guys can smell and taste just as much and as strong as women. If you're new to oral sex, you might be worried about taste and smell. If so, suggest a sexy bath or shower together and start with a clean slate. You can also add a bit of flavored lubricant to his penis or put on a flavored condom, which is great for safer oral sex.

2.   Get comfortable. Your comfort is key to your enjoyment, and fellatio can put a strain on your neck and jaw. Kneeling before him on a pillow, while he’s standing or sitting, gives you good range of motion and plenty of access. If you’ve had bad experiences with oral sex where you felt lack of control, have him on his back and crouch in between his legs. Giving head can put you in a major power position, if you like that feeling then go for it.

3.   Tease him with touch. Using your hands first, gently caress his inner thighs, penis, testicles, and perineum, paying attention to his reactions (verbal and facial) as you touch certain spots. The most sensitive spot on a guy’s penis is the head (known as the glans), especially the frenulum, an indentation between the glans and the shaft on the underside of the penis. You might want to brush up on your knowledge of , to know what you’re working with.

4.   Give him a lick. Follow up with your tongue, exploring the same terrain using slow wide strokes with your tongue. Don’t be afraid to use lots of saliva, as this natural lube feels great and helps create friction and suction. There are many STDs that can be passed during oral sex, using flavored condoms is a great way to practice safer sex and deal with any taste you may not like. It is also a perfect way to get guys who say they have difficulty with condoms, to gladly put one on.

5.   Take him in your mouth. When he’s semi-erect, slowly guide your lips over the tip of his penis, making sure your lips cover your teeth as you slide gently down his shaft as far as you’re comfortable. Keep your mouth taut, as the pressure from your lips will feel great as they glide down the penis. Putting him in your mouth before he is fully erect is a good way of getting comfortable with the size of his penis, particularly if he is in the larger range.

6.   Watch the gag reflex. If you’re not adept at deep throat (taking the whole penis in your mouth), don’t try it or you’ll trigger the gag reflex. It’s not necessary and a similar effect can be achieved with the hand and mouth technique described below. With practice, you can learn to relax your gag reflex and take in more of the penis.

7.   Use your mouth and tongue. As your head travels up the underside of the penis, flatten your tongue so it gives his frenulum a nice wide, wet stroke. Don’t be afraid to try different types of licks or kisses—the lips feel good when popped over the ridge of the penis—but perform each stroke repeatedly before changing to give consistent pleasure.

8.   Foreskin fun. If your partner is uncircumcised, insert your tongue into the foreskin and circle around the head with it. You can also use your fingers to gently massage the head through the foreskin, alternating with deep tongue licks.

9.   Using your mouth and hand, tip 1. A great blow job incorporates both hands and mouth. Place one hand around the shaft of his penis while you move up and down on the top half of his penis. Try coordinating your movements so your hand and mouth are going up and down in unison. If you're partner is thrusting, your hand will prevent his penis from being pushed too far into your mouth.

10.   Using your mouth and hand, tip 2. If he likes this combination, bring your hand all the way up the shaft (following your mouth), remove your mouth briefly, use your palm to slide and twist over the head (as if you were juicing an orange), and then glide your hand back down followed by your mouth again. Repeat.

11.   Let him come. When he’s ready to orgasm, keep your movements consistent and firm—don’t slack off. Once he starts ejaculating, see him through with a few strokes and then stop, as most men don’t want continued stimulation once they’ve come.

12.   To swallow or not to swallow? This decision is entirely up to you. There's nothing wrong with you if you don't want to, but it's nice to let your partner know it's nothing personal. If you don't want to swallow, and you don’t know how to recognize the signs that he is about to come, let him know you want a warning. Remove your mouth as he's about to ejaculate, and continue hand stroking through his orgasm.

Tips:

1. Don’t forget the rest of his body. The testicles (balls) are particularly sensitive, and most men like them to be stimulated. Try lightly licking or touching his testicles during oral sex. He might also like them to be cradled gently in one of your hands. Some men go wild when you place your hand around the top of the scrotum and gently tug down.
2. You can also apply pressure to his perineum (the spot between his anus and his penis) with one or two fingers, as this also can feel good.
3. He might like wearing a butt plug during oral sex for added prostate stimulation. Or you can apply pressure to his anus with one of your fingers.

My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,

I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my Mommy
Would still want to hug me.

I can't speak at all,
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.

When I awake I'm all
alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home.

When my Mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.

I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall.

I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry.

He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.

He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words
spoken.

"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate.

The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!

And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor.

My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.


There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. And you can help.
Please copy this poem in your own blog as a Blue Ribbon Against Child Abuse,  because as crazy as it might sound, it might just indirectly change a life. Hey, you NEVER know. Let's all stand up and beat this together.

Ok, here I am going to type every thought I have running through my head. Every feeling, every smell, every little thing, no matter how random or stupid it seems! Try it, its a strange but wonderful thing... here goes!

 

Ready... Set... Go... dark, letters, where is that letter, mistake, music, fan blowing, cool breeze, to many thoughts to list, purple, sex, satin, yum, strawberries, wonder if ne one will read this, wonder if anyone cares, am i strange?, lol ears itchy, can't find the right keys when typing, Jakobi, snores, tv flickering, sex, lol i think about sex alot, never noticed that before, wonder what people will think, tired, gee its late/early, sick of typing, can i make my mind stop? I wonder if i could, what does it take? ice, green, park, car goes by, night, cool breeze, peaceful, quiet music , taping foot, STOP.

 

lol Well thats some of the things on my mind tonight, whats on yours?

 

 

What makes us who we are? Some say its how our parents bring us up; sure ok partly, but your parents can't take all the blame or all the credit. Some say its your attitude towards yourself, others and towards life... ok again only partly; positive thinking and acting is not going to solve lifes problems. Some say its life experiences that mould us into who we are, again only partly. Maybe my point here is we are all moulded by different things and its never just one thing...

 

Once we are moulded and shaped we become  the person we are today, how do you discover and understand that person? Is that part of societies problem; most people don't understand or know who they are, therefore being unable to understand others? Is that why relationships/marriages don't seem to last as long these days? Granted there are a few that defy the trend, but only a few. Its a sad fact. Maybe if we took the time to get to know ourselves first, we wouldn't have such a hard time getting to know others intimately.

 

I am on a Journey... I am discovering who I am, what I feel, what I want... and I must say I am enjoying it greatly. I feel more relaxed, I feel content when I go to sleep at night, I have hope for the future... things don't look so bad anymore. Highly advise others to go on their own Journey of Discovery... could make a bigger difference to your life than you think!

 

 

1. Get 24 boxes of tampons and put the in the guys carts when they aren’t looking 2. Set all the alarm clocks in the house ware department to go off at 5 minute intervals. 3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the ladies restrooms. 4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official voice ‘Code 3 in house ware’….and see what happens. 5. Go to the desk and ask to put a bag of M&Ms on lay-by. 6. Move a ‘Caution-Wet Floor’ sign to a carpeted area. 7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers your sleeping over: invite them in, if they bring pillows from the bedding department. 8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask ‘why can’t you people just leave me alone?’ 9. Look right into the security camera, use it as a mirror, and pick your nose. 10. While handling guns in the hunting department(which we don't have in Australia), ask the clerk if he knows where the anti-depressants are. 11. Dart around the store suspiciously, while loudly humming to the theme from ‘mission impossible’ 12. In the auto department, practice you ‘Madonna look’ using different sized funnels. 13. Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through say ‘PICK ME PICK ME’ 14. When an announcement comes over the loudspeaker, assume the fetal position and scream. NO! It’s those voices again! And last but not least 15. Go into the fitting room, shut the door and wait awhile then yell loudly. There’s no toilet paper here.

 

I copied this from a friends space...http://spaces.msn.com/members/bobzplace1/Blog/cns!1p4EcsS7NMCIaXbxAWwCFNkg!132.entry?owner=1

Take the time to check out his space, might veiw things a little differently then!!

 

HORMONE WARNING:

 The Hormone Hostage knows that there are days in the month when all a man has to do is open his mouth and he takes his life in his own hands! This is a handy guide that should be as common as a driver's license in the wallet of every husband, boyfriend, or significant other! 

DANGEROUS: What's for dinner? 

SAFER: Can I help you with dinner? 

SAFEST: Where would you like to go for dinner? 

ULTRA SAFE: Have some chocolate

DANGEROUS: Are you wearing that?

SAFER: Wow, you look good in brown.

SAFEST: WOW! Look at you!

ULTRA SAFE: Have some chocolate

DANGEROUS: What are you so worked up about?

SAFER: Could we be overreacting?

SAFEST: Here's my paycheck.

ULTRA SAFE: Have some chocolate

DANGEROUS: Should you be eating that?

SAFER: You know, there are a lot of apples left.

SAFEST: Can I get you a glass of wine with that?

ULTRA SAFE: Have some chocolate

DANGEROUS: What did you do all day?

SAFER: I hope you didn't over-do it today.

SAFEST: I've always loved you in that robe!

ULTRA SAFE: Have some more chocolate.

 OMG!!! This is so me...

 

 

13 Things PMS Stands For

1. Pass My Shotgun

2. Psychotic Mood Shift

3. Perpetual Munching Spree

4. Puffy Mid-Section

5. People Make me Sick

6. Provide Me with Sweets

7. Pardon My Sobbing

8. Pimples May Surface

9. Pass My Sweatpants

10. Pissy Mood Syndrome

11. Plainly; Men Suck

12. Pack My Stuff 

 And my favorite one...

13. Potential Murder Suspect

 

Pass this on to all of your hormonal friends and those who might need a good Laugh! Or men who need a warning.  And remember: Money talks.... But Chocolate sings !   Welcome to Monday.....

"AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I am so frustrated with people. I am tired of the selfish, inconsiderate people I seem to have all around me.  I am not a needy person, I am flexible and open-minded yet people seem to think I am the one being unreasonable. Both in friendships and relationship I respect that we all need our own time, we all need time with our other friends ect, but in saying that I don't what to be ignored or forgotten... no one does! I can't just let it go, maybe the person/people don't realise their doing it... so i say something about it. They bite my head off, they don't understand why I am upset or what the problem is. The problem is I sit here night after night by myself and I get lonely. I am there when others need advice or a shoulder to cry on but when i need someone, everyone runs for cover. I am tired of pretending I can cope and deal with everything myself because I can't, I am falling apart and no ones here to help pick up the pieces...

This was apparently in the Washington Post... the title of the
article was "Best Come Back Line Ever."

In summary, the police arrested Patrick Lawrence, 22 year old white
male resident of Dacula, GA, in a pumpkin patch 11:38 p.m. on Friday.

Lawrence will be charged with lewd and lascivious behaviour, public
indecency,and public intoxication at the Gwinnett County courthouse
on Monday.

The suspect explained that as he was passing a pumpkin
patch he decided to stop. "You know, a pumpkin is soft and squishy inside,
and there was no one around for miles.  At least I thought there wasn't
" he stated in a phone interview. Lawrence went on to say that he pulled
over to the side of the road, picked out a pumpkin that he felt was
appropriate to his purpose, cut a hole in it, and proceeded to
satisfy his alleged "need."
"Guess I was really into it, you know?" he commented with evident
embarrassment.

In the process, Lawrence apparently failed to notice a Gwinnett
County police car approaching and was unaware of his audience until
officer Brenda Taylor approached him.
"That was an unusual situation, that's for sure," said officer Taylor
"I walked up to Lawrence and he's...just pumping away at this
pumpkin."
Taylor went on to describe what happened when she approached
Lawrence.
"I just went up and said, "Excuse me sir, but do you realize that
you're having sex with a pumpkin?". "

He froze and was clearly very surprised that I was there, and then
looked me straight in the face and said ...
"A pumpkin?   F*** me , is it midnight already?"